"SQ17... 1145pm... hmm..." 我望着flight information board.... 内心非常 excited... midnight 的airport aircon, super 冷... almost time 了... 快去belt 37 吧...
一个星期前，收到了她的sms...
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"hey, its me. Are you going to be very busy for the next few weeks? *hugz* miss you"
"hi baby! its been so long! i miss you! where have you been? I'm not very busy nowadays. Its going to be Christmas soon! so work's slowed a little."
"Thinking. Straightening out my thoughts. Great. I'm coming over then. Will email you when I'm home. ttyl."
回家后看了看email... 原来她临时决定来看我，就马上买了机票。piang...
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biang... 12月 的 singapore.... everyday 下雨... 是不是global warming? 为什么这么冷?? then somemore snowcity 搬到 airport 了.... air con 冷到~~~~~~
两手插进 pocket... 好冷... 我望着地上，看着我的shoes... 发呆... 好像念英国的冬天....
hmm.. 突然有个人 stopped in front of me. 我抬起了头... in front of me, 站着个有一点点chubby, but skin 很好, bak jiu si bei dua liap 的女孩
"ah..." biang... 在美女面前，便哑巴了... mouth 里好像有potato 一样... tio stuck...
"aaah!!!!!" 她尖叫了一声, trolley push aside 就 pounce on me... wa lao! confirm 很多人听到... also 还好我壮如牛! easily 抱得起她... 2 1/2 year army.. 不是骗人的ok!
美... 在雨天无聊时上网在internet 认识的你... 又在冷冷的雨天终于遇见了你.... 你赢了lor...
Monday, December 3, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
你在哪里....
星期五.. gloomy day... long weekend 的前夕...
好久好久没有她的消息了，她失踪了，MIA....
每天我都会上MSN, frequently check 看看她有没有online... 这么的miss 她... 是爱吗? 爱情就是黑洞..... 扭曲我所有..... 我想要爱你却迷失了我自己..... 真的分不出来.... 给的是不是真爱..... 游戏我玩不起来..... *duh* 张震岳 像devil 一样, 在我mind 里面开始唱歌....
"oi, what happen to you? 你好象瘦了。" 星期三，和 Josephine 到 sakae sushi 吃。wa lao.. 是我没胃口吃，还是 sakae sushi 的 standard drop 了?
"我失恋 liao lor" 我毫不在乎，又认证的说。
"siao ah! 你是monk ok! 像我这样漂亮的 lady，你都不要。你会失恋？" Josephine 和我是好久的朋友了。以前她也爱过我，她的早餐，情书，泪水我都收过了。but in the end, 我还是拒绝了她，和 C 在一起。 then who knows, 到最后 C dump 了我.... 奸女人。现在的Josephine，从 almost 的 lover, 到很好的朋友。漂亮的 Josephine, 头发长长，小小的鼻子，厚厚 sexy 的 pouty lips, 眼睛小小，but 很会放电。recently 不知道有多少 guys 被她电到。SGH 的 A&E 一定多了几起 heart attack case 了。有空没空还会电电我 for fun。看了 heartbeat 会 increase 的 oh!
"aiya, remember that internet girl i told u about?"
"har? 那个你 everyday 会聊天的那个？你玩太多 computer game liao lah! virtual 聊天也会fall in love meh?"
"很久没有聊了...."
"很久没有碰女人是吗？来来抱一下" 她open up 她的arms... act like 要抱我一样。"怎么啦，这么性感的女孩你都不要？" 她换了个姿势，摆个 sexy pose.
"bo liao" 一盘tuna sushi 刚刚"走"过... 我拿了放在她面前... "吃 tuna lah, tuna 比你 sexy"
"她叫什么名？"
"你猜？荷花的名字。Aurora, Charlene, Fabiola, Mayla...."
"bo liao. 我又不是在上吴忠宪的节目。"
"truth is, 她不见很久了。我有点 worried. 因为她有 suffer from depression 过。then 也 try to 自杀过。担心 lor.... I really feel that we are very close lor... we really felt a connection with one another. at least I do. 我们有 video call, skype, even call each other's handphone.... then.." 我choke 到自己的口水。要跟这个zar bo 讲这么多 meh...
"then 什么?" 边问边吃 tuna, then 装一幅很好吃的样子. 她看太多 japan hour 了。
"其他的不用讲 liao mah.... 你都知道了... but then... hai... then 她还说她喜欢我 lor.... "
Josephine 差一点 choke 到她的 green tea. "wa lao! hahaha 你是创世纪超级纯情大处男 ah? hahahahaha"
"idiot... 不讲了!" 我拿了tissue 给还在大笑的她。 "抹嘴啦！你吐 green tea liao lah"
这时，超级无敌迟到的sharon finally 到了。
"what did I miss? so funny ah?"
"nothing.. hahahahaha" 如果现在是在别的地方的话，Josephine 因该已经躺在地上大笑了。
对一个没有见过面的人，能有这么强烈的感觉吗？这种感觉，是思念吗？这般思念，是爱吗？她现在，在哪里？在做什么？为什么不见了...
王菲乘我不注意的时候，把张震岳踢掉，拿起我脑海里的mike.....
好久好久没有她的消息了，她失踪了，MIA....
每天我都会上MSN, frequently check 看看她有没有online... 这么的miss 她... 是爱吗? 爱情就是黑洞..... 扭曲我所有..... 我想要爱你却迷失了我自己..... 真的分不出来.... 给的是不是真爱..... 游戏我玩不起来..... *duh* 张震岳 像devil 一样, 在我mind 里面开始唱歌....
"oi, what happen to you? 你好象瘦了。" 星期三，和 Josephine 到 sakae sushi 吃。wa lao.. 是我没胃口吃，还是 sakae sushi 的 standard drop 了?
"我失恋 liao lor" 我毫不在乎，又认证的说。
"siao ah! 你是monk ok! 像我这样漂亮的 lady，你都不要。你会失恋？" Josephine 和我是好久的朋友了。以前她也爱过我，她的早餐，情书，泪水我都收过了。but in the end, 我还是拒绝了她，和 C 在一起。 then who knows, 到最后 C dump 了我.... 奸女人。现在的Josephine，从 almost 的 lover, 到很好的朋友。漂亮的 Josephine, 头发长长，小小的鼻子，厚厚 sexy 的 pouty lips, 眼睛小小，but 很会放电。recently 不知道有多少 guys 被她电到。SGH 的 A&E 一定多了几起 heart attack case 了。有空没空还会电电我 for fun。看了 heartbeat 会 increase 的 oh!
"aiya, remember that internet girl i told u about?"
"har? 那个你 everyday 会聊天的那个？你玩太多 computer game liao lah! virtual 聊天也会fall in love meh?"
"很久没有聊了...."
"很久没有碰女人是吗？来来抱一下" 她open up 她的arms... act like 要抱我一样。"怎么啦，这么性感的女孩你都不要？" 她换了个姿势，摆个 sexy pose.
"bo liao" 一盘tuna sushi 刚刚"走"过... 我拿了放在她面前... "吃 tuna lah, tuna 比你 sexy"
"她叫什么名？"
"你猜？荷花的名字。Aurora, Charlene, Fabiola, Mayla...."
"bo liao. 我又不是在上吴忠宪的节目。"
"truth is, 她不见很久了。我有点 worried. 因为她有 suffer from depression 过。then 也 try to 自杀过。担心 lor.... I really feel that we are very close lor... we really felt a connection with one another. at least I do. 我们有 video call, skype, even call each other's handphone.... then.." 我choke 到自己的口水。要跟这个zar bo 讲这么多 meh...
"then 什么?" 边问边吃 tuna, then 装一幅很好吃的样子. 她看太多 japan hour 了。
"其他的不用讲 liao mah.... 你都知道了... but then... hai... then 她还说她喜欢我 lor.... "
Josephine 差一点 choke 到她的 green tea. "wa lao! hahaha 你是创世纪超级纯情大处男 ah? hahahahaha"
"idiot... 不讲了!" 我拿了tissue 给还在大笑的她。 "抹嘴啦！你吐 green tea liao lah"
这时，超级无敌迟到的sharon finally 到了。
"what did I miss? so funny ah?"
"nothing.. hahahahaha" 如果现在是在别的地方的话，Josephine 因该已经躺在地上大笑了。
对一个没有见过面的人，能有这么强烈的感觉吗？这种感觉，是思念吗？这般思念，是爱吗？她现在，在哪里？在做什么？为什么不见了...
王菲乘我不注意的时候，把张震岳踢掉，拿起我脑海里的mike.....
Sunday, July 8, 2007
你要来吗?
星期天，又是雨天。
好久没洗车了, cos too lazy. 昨天决定wash it, cos 很dirty 了。finally 车清洁了，then the stupid sky decide to rain today. 妈的。
下午到了tampines看看Hokkaido Fair... 好多人... food 也不是很好吃。咳。我的standard raise 了，不是新鲜的seafood，吃了都不爽。
"I'm missing you now, at Hokkaido." 我很无聊的mms了我的荷花。我找个corner, 拍了myself in front of this big big sign that says 北海道。
逛了逛tampines, 真受不了。so many people! so crowded! 正要回家时....
"Don't stay there for too long! If you do, who is to bring me around when I come to Singapore? :)" 好惊人的sms... 我send 了她一个"what do to you mean?!" but 她也没reply 了。 哇靠！要害我 have sleepless night ah!
好久没洗车了, cos too lazy. 昨天决定wash it, cos 很dirty 了。finally 车清洁了，then the stupid sky decide to rain today. 妈的。
下午到了tampines看看Hokkaido Fair... 好多人... food 也不是很好吃。咳。我的standard raise 了，不是新鲜的seafood，吃了都不爽。
"I'm missing you now, at Hokkaido." 我很无聊的mms了我的荷花。我找个corner, 拍了myself in front of this big big sign that says 北海道。
逛了逛tampines, 真受不了。so many people! so crowded! 正要回家时....
"Don't stay there for too long! If you do, who is to bring me around when I come to Singapore? :)" 好惊人的sms... 我send 了她一个"what do to you mean?!" but 她也没reply 了。 哇靠！要害我 have sleepless night ah!
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Letter 信
今天收到了lily 的email。
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My Dear Dear Prince,
I'm so sorry for not coming online. I know you've been waiting online for me to come on. I'm just so tired, so tired of everything. So tired of coming online and having people asking me how am I doing, so tired of seeing emails. I know everyone one of you meant well, and are really concern about me. But I'm just so tired of replying and saying the same thing over and over again. I'm ok, I'm ok, don't worry. So tired of seeing people taking pity in me, so tired of crying, so tired of crying myself to sleep, so tired of thinking, so tired of being tired
I shun my friends, I shun my colleagues. I don't know who else he has been sleeping with. I don't want to double guess everyone. I don't want the fear of half expecting someone to just say "Actually I slept with him too."
I quit my jobs. I've quit my Customs work, and quit as a teacher. I cannot face seeing these people with red and swollen eyes everyday. I hating waking up in the morning and having to go out and put on a pretentious mask again. I want to tell people I am not ok, I am depress, I am upset, but I can't. I don't want anyone to take pity in me. I don't want help. I just want to be alone.
Every day I stay in bed. I stayed at home. I do nothing but cry, sleep, and stare. I don't want to, but I don't want to do anything else too. The pain is just too much. Who can I trust now? Who can I turn to? There is only you, but you are so far away, I don't want to think about it. I do not know if the day will come when I will meet you, to bury myself in your arms; to cry; to sigh. I don't know, so I will not think about it anymore. But do know you will always have a special place in my heart, my dear dear prince halfway round the world. You are for keeps.
I will be leaving this place for a while. I want to leave the phone behind, the laptop behind. I will try to leave all the memories behind, good or bad. I want to breath for a while, to totally totally lost myself and not be connect in any way to anyone anywhere. I want to go somewhere to rest and try to find myself again. I am writing to you to let you know I will always love you. No matter where I am, I will always remember you. The time we spent chatting the night and day away, the songs, the picture, the music, and the very short but sweet phone calls. Zen's "I remember you" will always remind me of you, because it is the first song you dedicate to me. "Try to remember", Beyond's "喜欢你" will always be your songs to me. I would love to hear you sing them, but I will not think about it now.
I'm going to 100 Miles House for a while. I do not know for how long, but I will let you know when I come back. Love you always. ttyl. mmmmmmmmmmmuah.
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100 Miles House 在哪里?! google 了一下下。原来是在canada 的一个地方，好像是个quite nice的地方。可以ski, 可以golf, 有山有水有雪有rodeo有dog sledding，好像是个很relaxing 的place。我也好想去.........
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My Dear Dear Prince,
I'm so sorry for not coming online. I know you've been waiting online for me to come on. I'm just so tired, so tired of everything. So tired of coming online and having people asking me how am I doing, so tired of seeing emails. I know everyone one of you meant well, and are really concern about me. But I'm just so tired of replying and saying the same thing over and over again. I'm ok, I'm ok, don't worry. So tired of seeing people taking pity in me, so tired of crying, so tired of crying myself to sleep, so tired of thinking, so tired of being tired
I shun my friends, I shun my colleagues. I don't know who else he has been sleeping with. I don't want to double guess everyone. I don't want the fear of half expecting someone to just say "Actually I slept with him too."
I quit my jobs. I've quit my Customs work, and quit as a teacher. I cannot face seeing these people with red and swollen eyes everyday. I hating waking up in the morning and having to go out and put on a pretentious mask again. I want to tell people I am not ok, I am depress, I am upset, but I can't. I don't want anyone to take pity in me. I don't want help. I just want to be alone.
Every day I stay in bed. I stayed at home. I do nothing but cry, sleep, and stare. I don't want to, but I don't want to do anything else too. The pain is just too much. Who can I trust now? Who can I turn to? There is only you, but you are so far away, I don't want to think about it. I do not know if the day will come when I will meet you, to bury myself in your arms; to cry; to sigh. I don't know, so I will not think about it anymore. But do know you will always have a special place in my heart, my dear dear prince halfway round the world. You are for keeps.
I will be leaving this place for a while. I want to leave the phone behind, the laptop behind. I will try to leave all the memories behind, good or bad. I want to breath for a while, to totally totally lost myself and not be connect in any way to anyone anywhere. I want to go somewhere to rest and try to find myself again. I am writing to you to let you know I will always love you. No matter where I am, I will always remember you. The time we spent chatting the night and day away, the songs, the picture, the music, and the very short but sweet phone calls. Zen's "I remember you" will always remind me of you, because it is the first song you dedicate to me. "Try to remember", Beyond's "喜欢你" will always be your songs to me. I would love to hear you sing them, but I will not think about it now.
I'm going to 100 Miles House for a while. I do not know for how long, but I will let you know when I come back. Love you always. ttyl. mmmmmmmmmmmuah.
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100 Miles House 在哪里?! google 了一下下。原来是在canada 的一个地方，好像是个quite nice的地方。可以ski, 可以golf, 有山有水有雪有rodeo有dog sledding，好像是个很relaxing 的place。我也好想去.........
Sunday, June 17, 2007
她他
Sunday, 雨天
Lily已经有好多天没有online 了。
她和他，在一起5年了。他是她friend 的friend。在一个trip 时认识的。在一起5 years了。感情还好。她every morning 会make breakfast 给他。工作时会send sms给他;睡觉之前会想他。等他下班;等他回家;等他过生日;等他过christmas.他送她的每一封信，每一个sms,每一朵玫瑰,每个回忆，她都保留着。Lily对他就像古天乐对张伯之一样:只疼他一个，宠他，不会骗他，答应他的每一件事情都会做到，对他说的每一句话都是真心话；不欺负他，不骂他，相信他；他开心她就陪他开心，他不开心时会哄他开心，永远觉得他最帅，梦里面也会见到他，在她的心里面只有他。
而他也和她的friend 混的not bad. especially the girls. 也因为她们，她和他break 了。
长话说短，他和她的best friend 上床了。酒醉三分醒，她不接受他的解释，也不能forgive 她的best friend。多年的爱情，和friendship, 就这样gone case。
hai... 红颜祸水。
(last sunday....)
"i'm very tired, been crying all day. i'll go to bed now."
"ok. you take care dear. i'll see you soon" 和她聊了这么久，从没听过她说 tired, 都是我说的。她online, 可以聊到4-5am vancouver time....
after that day, 就没有再看到她online.....
Lily已经有好多天没有online 了。
她和他，在一起5年了。他是她friend 的friend。在一个trip 时认识的。在一起5 years了。感情还好。她every morning 会make breakfast 给他。工作时会send sms给他;睡觉之前会想他。等他下班;等他回家;等他过生日;等他过christmas.他送她的每一封信，每一个sms,每一朵玫瑰,每个回忆，她都保留着。Lily对他就像古天乐对张伯之一样:只疼他一个，宠他，不会骗他，答应他的每一件事情都会做到，对他说的每一句话都是真心话；不欺负他，不骂他，相信他；他开心她就陪他开心，他不开心时会哄他开心，永远觉得他最帅，梦里面也会见到他，在她的心里面只有他。
而他也和她的friend 混的not bad. especially the girls. 也因为她们，她和他break 了。
长话说短，他和她的best friend 上床了。酒醉三分醒，她不接受他的解释，也不能forgive 她的best friend。多年的爱情，和friendship, 就这样gone case。
hai... 红颜祸水。
(last sunday....)
"i'm very tired, been crying all day. i'll go to bed now."
"ok. you take care dear. i'll see you soon" 和她聊了这么久，从没听过她说 tired, 都是我说的。她online, 可以聊到4-5am vancouver time....
after that day, 就没有再看到她online.....
Thursday, June 7, 2007
像 You 像 Me
"what mouse walk on 2 legs?"
"errm.... i give up"
"Mickey Mouse!"
"hahahahaha"
"ok, the next question.. what duck walk on 2 legs?"
"Donald Duck!"
"errmm.... all ducks walk on 2 legs. hahahahaha"
"omg! hilarious! lol"
我们天天聊，most of the time 闲聊就会讲冷笑话。不过很可惜, a lot of 冷笑话都是in chinese的，她又看不懂，cultural 也不一样。有a lot of 无聊的冷笑话cannot say. lol.
monday 的时候......
"what are you doing now?"
"me? watching tv. there's a show on tv. last episode. some vampire serial". 我和马小玲的约会，3 times a week 都会有。
"what's that?"
"some cantonese vampire show. about this group of people who are vampire, good vampires, and they battle different things all the time. this is the 3rd season, they are battling fate. i'll send u a pic. :p" 我send 了永恒国度的pic 给她。
"omg! i love this show!"
duh... 她也有看僵尸的meh? oh. 忘了僵尸originally 是cantonese 的。
"yap. we call them chapter movies here. i've finished watching all 3 seasons already."
"me too. this is a re-run. lol. but i still love it all the same." cos i love 马小玲 mah. hmm... 天涯oso cute... lol .... "the love story is nice. it is not as romantic or epic as plots in other movies, but it is interesting nevertheless. imagine! 2 vampires, living forever, together! don't you just wish u and ur bf can be like that!" 直教人生死相许,天南地北双飞燕,老翅几回寒暑,欢乐趣,离别苦,就中更有痴儿女,君应有语,渺万里层云,千山暮雪,指影向谁去.... Deny thy father and refuse thy name;Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love,And I'll no longer be a Capulet.... 曾经有一份真诚的爱情摆在我面前，但我没有珍惜，直到失去以后才后悔莫及，人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此..... 我妈说我memory差，什么事都记不了。exam 时always forget things. but 有些话study 的时候觉得interesting, 都会去背... cos 以后easier to 骗女孩子.... end up 有些东西一背，一辈子都忘不了....
MSN 好像hang 了。我的lily 没有反应.... 我send 了ah boon 一个"oi! boon!"
"what!"
"没事。check check 我的MSN 有没有hang"
"bo liao!"
MSN 没hang leh。荷花妹有事时会 BRB 的。是不是我说了something wrong? 难道她是僵尸?!
"........" 她send 了个点点点
"i don't think that will happen to me. i just broke up with my bf"
"errm.... i give up"
"Mickey Mouse!"
"hahahahaha"
"ok, the next question.. what duck walk on 2 legs?"
"Donald Duck!"
"errmm.... all ducks walk on 2 legs. hahahahaha"
"omg! hilarious! lol"
我们天天聊，most of the time 闲聊就会讲冷笑话。不过很可惜, a lot of 冷笑话都是in chinese的，她又看不懂，cultural 也不一样。有a lot of 无聊的冷笑话cannot say. lol.
monday 的时候......
"what are you doing now?"
"me? watching tv. there's a show on tv. last episode. some vampire serial". 我和马小玲的约会，3 times a week 都会有。
"what's that?"
"some cantonese vampire show. about this group of people who are vampire, good vampires, and they battle different things all the time. this is the 3rd season, they are battling fate. i'll send u a pic. :p" 我send 了永恒国度的pic 给她。
"omg! i love this show!"
duh... 她也有看僵尸的meh? oh. 忘了僵尸originally 是cantonese 的。
"yap. we call them chapter movies here. i've finished watching all 3 seasons already."
"me too. this is a re-run. lol. but i still love it all the same." cos i love 马小玲 mah. hmm... 天涯oso cute... lol .... "the love story is nice. it is not as romantic or epic as plots in other movies, but it is interesting nevertheless. imagine! 2 vampires, living forever, together! don't you just wish u and ur bf can be like that!" 直教人生死相许,天南地北双飞燕,老翅几回寒暑,欢乐趣,离别苦,就中更有痴儿女,君应有语,渺万里层云,千山暮雪,指影向谁去.... Deny thy father and refuse thy name;Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love,And I'll no longer be a Capulet.... 曾经有一份真诚的爱情摆在我面前，但我没有珍惜，直到失去以后才后悔莫及，人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此..... 我妈说我memory差，什么事都记不了。exam 时always forget things. but 有些话study 的时候觉得interesting, 都会去背... cos 以后easier to 骗女孩子.... end up 有些东西一背，一辈子都忘不了....
MSN 好像hang 了。我的lily 没有反应.... 我send 了ah boon 一个"oi! boon!"
"what!"
"没事。check check 我的MSN 有没有hang"
"bo liao!"
MSN 没hang leh。荷花妹有事时会 BRB 的。是不是我说了something wrong? 难道她是僵尸?!
"........" 她send 了个点点点
"i don't think that will happen to me. i just broke up with my bf"
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
歌 song II
大晴天。
这么多人MSN我。你们很鸡婆leh！I already figure out the song了。要知道the name of the song?! 给你们tips 吧。如果还不知道是什么歌then 就 too bad!
我用英文的words, translate 到广东话，就是歌词了。
“难分真与假,
人面多险诈,
几许有共享荣华,
檐畔水滴不分差......”
还有，我现在用的是MSN，不是ICQ lah!
这么多人MSN我。你们很鸡婆leh！I already figure out the song了。要知道the name of the song?! 给你们tips 吧。如果还不知道是什么歌then 就 too bad!
我用英文的words, translate 到广东话，就是歌词了。
“难分真与假,
人面多险诈,
几许有共享荣华,
檐畔水滴不分差......”
还有，我现在用的是MSN，不是ICQ lah!
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